一个人时。

生日快到了，
以前会觉得生日很重要，
一定要让朋友都知道我的生日日期，
一定要和家人或朋友一起庆祝才行。

还记得，
还没来这里之前，
知道自己的生日会在这个陌生的地方庆祝时，
觉得很不开心，
一直想着，
今年的生日一定是遭透了，
还想着一定是自己一个人过，
应该是自己一个人买蛋糕的，
自己一个人唱着生日歌给自己听，
把蜡烛吹熄了，
然后再祝自己生日快乐，
这样有够残吧。
哈哈哈哈哈…

但是，
当知道自己的生日会在家过时，
真的有那么一点点得到安慰的感觉，
觉得其实也没那么残啦…

但渐渐的，
当生日越来越靠近时，
要庆祝的心情却每那么强烈了。
突然觉得生日其实也没什么，
就只是一个日子，
让我们有借口约约朋友出来聚一聚，
一个理所当然的借口让我们收礼物，
一个借口让我们有机会吃蛋糕。

朋友啊，
你们还记得吗，
以前的我常常把我的生日挂在嘴边，
看到自己喜欢的东西时，
会开开玩笑的提醒着你们，
我的生日快到了，
虽然那时才一月啊。

你们还记得吗，
我常常告诉你们别忘了我的生日，
常常说着要如何过自己的生日，
常常在你们的书上或是在自己和你们的桌子上，
倒数这自己的生日，
常常告诉着你们我遥不可极的生日礼物，
常常告诉着你们我喜欢的蛋糕口味。

朋友啊，
今年没了我在你们的身边，
你们还习惯吗？
你们会偶尔记得我吗？
没了我在你们的身边吵吵的，
你们会记得我的生日吗？

以前都会想着要如何和你们庆祝你们的生日，
要买些什么生日礼物给你们，
要怎么和你们庆祝你们才会开心，
才会给到你们惊喜。
虽然还是常常失败了，
还常常把自己给弄气了，
弄哭了。

但是到了当天看见你们，
开开心心得唱着生日歌，
开开心心得把蜡烛吹熄，
开开心心得把蛋糕给切了，
然后再开开心心得把蛋糕分给我吃，
之前所有的不开心，
已不算是什么了。

你们懂吗，

在这里，
我再也没像以前一样，
告诉着别人自己的生日快到了，
告诉别人自己喜欢的东西，
告诉别人喜欢的蛋糕，
告诉别人要如何庆祝了..

你们应该都不知道，
以前我有多么的期待你们会如何和我庆祝，
会给我什么样的惊喜，
我会收到什么样奇奇怪怪的礼物，
会不会和我想象的一样，
还是会和我跟你们庆祝的类似呢？
哈哈哈哈哈…

今年，
会是怎样呢？
会有人祝我生日快乐吗？
会有人为我唱生日歌吗？
会有礼物吗？
会有蛋糕吗？
会有人在那天突然想起我吗？
会收到很久都没联络的朋友，
突然的来讯吗？
还是你们都会不记得呢？

没关系，
因为我突然想不到要庆祝生日的原因，
想不到为什么会有人为我庆祝，
为什么会有人为我浪费时间，
为什么会有人为我浪费金钱，
还有很多的为什么，
说不出来…

生日，
其实还真的没什么，

它，
平平凡凡的，
却很多人为了它而开心，
很多人为了它而伤心，
还有些人为了它而感动。
它是那么的平凡，
而同时却那么的让人着迷…

*OffTopic*
你们一定觉得为什么我那么得空，
想着这些有的没的。
现在我才知道，
原来当你一个人时，
会有那么多负面的想法，
会有那么多奇奇怪怪的想法，
会有那么无聊的想法。

没办法啊，

在这里是那么的难得我可以把音乐开得大大声的，
那么难得这房间只有我自己一个人，
这么难得这里只有我自己呼吸的声，
这么难么我可以静静的，
一个人想着，

你们，偶尔会想起我吗？

-娴著-

INeedSomeone.

Since my sister said i didnt blog for so long already, i will blog now.

For your information, im freaking stress now.

1) Tomorrow got public speaking meeting and lecture and i haven't prepare anything for the meeting yet and we are so confuse about what we should speak during the presentation day.

2) Wednesday got HE meeting and i cant find anything abt it on the web and in the library. THE UMS LIBRARY SUCK!!!! And supposing-ly i should stay in my room and study for my Management exam, but now its like..i got not enough time for everything..!!! STUPID!!!!

3) Thursday got management exam and i haven't touch the book yet..Not even a single page! Woot? Im so Freaking cool right? And on the SAME day i have to hand in the Management assignment,its about the trade agreements. I cant find any information from the web too! LOL And one the SAME day, i need to present ANOTHER management assignment in front of all and i haven't finish prepare for the speech. LOLOLOLOLOL.

4) I got Micro Assignment that i not yet prepare anythg for it and we gonna have discussion on Friday! And got one Stalker in my group!! WTH!! And im sort of the Micro's leader? Sien.

5) Marketing Assignment. ARGH!! just now i was reading and it makes me fall asleep..WTh.. =="

I really dunno wat to do..Give up? Hahaha Tahan ?My head gonna burst d.. Help anyone?

D'Bayu.

We used to come here after our classes ;
We used to come here for our lunch ;
We used to come here for our dinner ;
We used to come here to do our rehearsal for marketing presentation ;
We used to come here to here to do our mathematics tutorial works,
but end up buying foods and makan only instead of doing works ;
We used to come here to enjoy the scenery ;
We used to come here to SS ;
We used to come here randomly and sit there without doing anything;
We used to sit on the bench just to enjoy the air over here ;
We used to sit on the bench and chit chat over there ;
We used to come here to "LookSeeLookSee" ;






We will do more n more random stuffs over here -D'Bayu.

"Orientation"Week

I Don't really remember what i did during the orientation week, so i just post up some of the picture that i took during and after the orientation week.

Majlis Ikrar & Aku Janji.



Riadah.



SleepOver Night 1.



SleepOver Night 2.



Japanese Culture Night.



View From My School (SPE).



I think that's all! =D

Uni1stDay..

3rd of July
This was the day that im leaving from my home to go to somewhere that is totally strange to me. Ums. What is this place?Where is it? How does it looks like? LOL!? i don't really care, all i know is i gonna stay far far away with my daddy, mummy ,Bibi and even further to Dajie.

Daddy fetches me to the Airport. In the car, there's three of us. Daddy, me and QinAiDee. Holding back my tear when i was in the car. I cannot and don't wanna imagine it when daddy gonna leave me at the Airport. Was tearing inside the car but no one knows. Tried to concentrate on some other things so that i wont cry out. On the way to the Airport, its still ok,but once i reached the Airport, I feel weird. I don't wanna leave, i wanna stay. I don't mind if i have to study private, but i don't wanna add more burden to my parents.Im going there with my friends! Isn't that cool? LOL Comforting myself with this,but seems like it doesn't help much.

AirAsia, SUCKXXXX to the MAX seriously. Customer Service is a total FAILURE!!! Skip that part.

Was ss-ing with QinAidee and Sk in the plane! Hahaha
To Sk, Please send me the SS pictures so that i can upload ere..Hahaha

Reached Hostel. HOLY GOD! 4people in a room. 3of them is malay! Im the ONLY chinese..! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL Luckily they are not that mean type of person, they talk to me, ask me whether i need this or that or not and lots more! They are good.

At night, my parents called me.Ask me how am i, this and that. Daddy asked me whether i wanna have Japanese foods or not! Yishh...!Dajie Asked me to take pictures of my hostel but until now i haven take any picture.Hahaha

First day first day. Got lots more things about this day, but my memory always fails me. As day passes, i can't really remember what happened on that day. But its good to me! Because i don't remember all those bad stuffs! LOL

To Myself,

Hang On! Its the 3rd week in Ums still you are still ALIVE! I feel proud of you. Eventhou you are far from my family, but i feel so warm when i hear their voices through phone. Bibi, thanks for keep crapping with me on the phone, i really need that sometimes to make me feel like im not really that far from home, far from you all.
Daddy,
don't worry about me, i can survive over here. When i heard from mummy that you cant sleep for the first few days after i left home because you were worried about me. You worry that i cant adapt myself over here, you worry that i cant sleep well over here, you worry that the foods over here is not suitable for me, you worry about me so much.But Daddy, im fine over here, really fine.So, don't worry about me k? I miss your jokes, i miss the way u mock me every time when i say i wanna cook,i miss the way mummy laugh for your jokes, i miss the way we "argue" about some silly stuffs, i miss whenever i ask money from you, you will call me Crocodile Kid! or when i go to your room to find you, you will pretend that you are oikoik-ing d.. LOL

Lastly,
Daddy, Mummy, Dajie, BiBi, i Miss you.. =(

From,
-Zanne-