坚强的微笑,吧.

微笑吧! 用微笑来面对一切! 开心的，不开心的，痛心的，还是什么的，笑一笑,习惯就好! 撑一撑,没有被发现就好。 用一个笑容来代表一切,不容易啊; 我在练习 着。 如果不这样做,受伤的会是自己.. 在学会坚强的过程中,难免会把自己伤的更重.. 过了这阶段就会好了。 没有了伤害,这么能变坚强呢? 残忍吗?不, 这只是一种自我保护的方法而已。 我是属于我自己的,所以我得保护我自己 。 微笑吧! 没什么大不了! 至少对自己有个交代 :)

I.Love.You.!

Ok!
That's how it happened.

You called me and ask me what day is today.
Papa Rich, that's the hint that you gave me.
Pretend to be innocent " find it quite hard to get to right guess".
You gave me another hint,
Which is cut off the Rich word.
So, i said it's PapaRich's Day,
So don't kacau them!
Let them celebrate themselves!
Hahaha.

Today is Papa's Day,
Which i thought it was last week.
It's not that i'm "no heart",
Just that, one day,
While i was wandering in the Popular Bookshop,
Suddenly a thought came by,
Which is Oh! Get a card for Papa.!
Hmm..
Let's see,
Which card to get,
the BIG card which is very expensive,
Or a normal size size to show that we do actually care.

While in dilemma,
A Big father's Day card caught my attention!
It's written : 11st June, Happy Father's Day!
Something like that which i can't remember what exactly is written on it

So, from that moment,
I always thought that Papa's Day is on 11st of June.
Heehe, my bad for not checking the day.

Overall!
I just wanna wish my Papa,

Happy Papa's Day!

( Although I didn't prepare anything this year >.< )

The.Unnoticeable.Fear.That.Rise.Suddenly.From.No.Where.

There were so many arguments lately.
With reason, without reasons, Knowing the reasons and Without knowing the reason.

Why..? Whyy is it happening?
Is it something essential for a relationship?
If yes, and do it have to happen so frequently?
If no, then why there are so many arguments lately?

Misunderstanding? Saying something wrongly? Sensitive? Something changing?

I don't like this.
Serious, i hate this.
This feeling is suck.
It makes me feel like something is so wrong,
yet I couldn't fix it
because I don't really know what is wrong.
Isn't it funny?

You always say you don't want an argument,
That's why you said it's your fault,
and there's the end of the story,
and then we will back to like nothing ever happens.

It sounds like something good right?
Because,
In this case, we can avoid argument.!
We can act like nothing happens,
We are still so "we".

But think back,
Is it really that good?
Everything is keep inside your heart,
Accumulating.

Arguments,
Indicate that, there's a problem arise.
Problem is meant to be solve,
Not meant to be avoid or ignore..!

Let's talk about today!
Should be a great day i suppose.
Go out shopping after Spanish lesson,
Buy stuffs,
Tell him about what my course-mate told me just now :
That there are a dinner night that is opened for everyone,
He asked us to go and learn the ball room dance,
Because he need some pairs of people to take part for the dance.

Isn't it sounds lovely? Dancing, Ballroom..?
Oh ya,
He said it going to held at Shangri-La Hotel,
WoW..! Is it awesome..?
And there going to be a family day for our course,
But the venue is not set.
So overall,
the ballroom thingy cost Rm65 and the Family Day is Rm20..!
All together is Rm85.
Is it a bit too expensive,
And i don't think both of us are interested.

So much things to share with him yet i have to just shut up and swallow it an the moment.
Nomore from me.
( Bad Day for Me. ) whole thing divide by half, or many more. Hahaha Nonsense.

Only.If.You.Care.

Wake up around 11am plus,
Go out for lunch.
Sometimes will have a walk with friends after lunch,
Most of the time will call me after you are home.

When you are home,
You will play game with him.
Slight Sms with me,
Around 4pm,
You will have your nap.

Wake up again around 5pm,
Sms me after you wake up,
I know its time for you to bath and have your dinner.
After dinner,
You will call for awhile.

Telling me you going to play with him again.
Ok! Just go on.
Call me around 1am,
which is when you want to sleep.
Talk for awhile.
Telling me lets sms.
This is the only time where im REALLY sms ing with you.

Do you get what Im trying to say?
This is the time where you are only SMS ing with me without doing other things.
The way you sms at night is so different.
I know you never realize it,
Because im the one who reading it,
Not you.!

Those sms-es that you sent to me at night are longer,
Not to say its more meaningful but at least when i tell you something you will reply slightly longer?

You always ask me what m i doing..?
But i rarely ask you what are you doing,
Because i know what you are doing during different time.

Things changed, if you realize.
We rarely skype anymore.
I wonder , if that day i did not say i want to skype,
I bet we will never skype until now.

Afraid to tell you things in the afternoon.
Do you know why?
Im afraid the next message you reply is telling me you wanna play game,
Or you wanna take a nap.
How do you want me to response beside telling you okokay?

Im wondering,
Could you write down things i do like what i wrote up there?
I bet you can't.
Should i ask you about it?
Or should i just Shut up and just Shut up?

I don't know why i write this for,
Im not blaming anyone,
And maybe im thinking too much,
Wanting too much from what I already have,
But,
Expressing my feeling over here is better than i just keep it to myself.

If you bother to read,
You will know what happened.

WhenExpectationsFail.

24.

I expected something,
Yet there is nothing.

25.

I expected more,
Yet there is nothing.

27.

I don't expect anything,
Because knowing there would be nothing again.

31. / 1.

Don't even dare to expect for something,
Because heart is not meant to be broken,
And expectations, hurt.

If don't want to get hurt,
Please quit expecting,
Because it kills you silently and slowly without you realizing it.

Failure.

Just a failure as usual.

Failed to cook a simple maggie ;
Failed to wash my clothes without making it coloured in the end ;
Failed to take good care of my lappie until need to send it for repair ;
Failed to take good care of myself until got gastric ;
Failed to take good care of my earphone until one side of it is soundless ;
Failed to fold my clothes nicely ;
Failed to control my temper ;
Failed to cheer myself up ;
Failed to spend money wisely ;
Failed to solve my own problems ;
Failed to not asking helps from people ;
Failed to become independent ;
Failed to not thinking about all kind of craps ;
Failed to not being childish ;
Failed to get things done in time ;
Failed to not torturing myself not no reason ;

The most importantly,
I failed to make you quit,
I failed to make myself as a reason for you to quit ;
I failed in thinking that I can make you quit .

Please call me ATotalFailure. Thanks.

AfterRelaxingWillBeAStressDay.

Went to library this morning to study but end up uploading pictures. LOL But i did get to do the quiz and i don't know what is happening that i manage to score 10/10.



After that, thinking that i should do some reading on marketing since i got midterm for that subject on next Tuesday but end up i slept in the library. After i woke up, its time for the library to end its day.So i have to pack all my stuffs and go for dinner!

Went to Tasty Hot Pot! Finally! Thx to Choo and Schew always bring me Mam Mam anything that i wanna eat! Hahaha Picture Picture gonna upload next time because my phone is JAM.! =="

Ok! for now..im freaking stress! Too enjoy during the holidays until i didnt do anything for my assignments nor midterm. Argh!



1) Having Midterm for Reading and Writing on Next Monday which i haven do revision on that plus i hate English very much!
2) Having Midterm for Marketing on Next Tuesday which i haven study yet too.
3) Having Prof. Speaking presentation that we are still blur about it.
4) Stress with the outline.
5) Stress that don't know how to walk back from the airport to UMS.

Some more?! I don't hope so.

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Shopping.DayTwo.

After so long didn't drive, finally today i get to drive!
Again! Shopping Shopping!
Went out with my younger sister to Pyramid to Shopping.

Tada!

Jeans.

Pencil Case.

Snacks!

FinalFantasy Dvd.They called it as the Great Collection.


And Lastly a normal LongPants for semi-formal, although i don't really care! hahaha


That's all for today! And more to come.Muahahaha

p/s : Sorry for the cacat pictures that i posted. Lazy wanna get the camera to snap it, so just use my Phone's camera. =((

* OffTopic *

I feel like that there are few changes in me after i went to Sabah.
I feel like i become more courage in doing something. As in, for example for last time, if the uncle con my money, even though i got his contact number , i wont straight away call him. I will send Choo the uncle's number and wait for her to call for me and solve the problem. For for this time. without any hesitate i just call the uncle and ask him what the heck is going on? Where is my magz?! Lol Feel so proud of myself. I cant say that im very independent, but at least in this case, i can solve it myself. I don't wait for others to solve for me anymore. ^^v

Secondly, i feel like my temper is getting sucker. I drove to ss15 yesterday. I feel got abit "HeatUp" while following behind a slow car. I just feel like speed speed and speed only! Wanna get to the destination as soon as possible. Even i feel that i drive till very dangerous. LOL

At the moment, that's all i feel about myself. Smile, life still go on.

Shopping.DayOne.

After come back then its Shopping Time! =D
Went out with mummy and sister to Carrefour to get some stuffs. Once i reach there i start to Dapau Biscuits!

Tada!



Got Butter Crackers, Le-mond , Lexus! all x2 Hahaha hope this time wont over-loaded =X
And i get sunblock for the face! Because my friend said i look darker d, as in MY FACE! ==" So i remember it till now. Lol

That's all for the first shopping with mummy! =D

RandomPost.

Bought this HelloKitty Shoes at Sabah (CentrePoint). The price is quite reasonable for me. I was thinking should i bring this shoes back or just use it in my hostel but i don't feel like using it in the hostel because the hostel is so damn freaking dusty and the floor is dirty too! So, i brought it back to Subang, at least i can wear it in the house right and no one will steal it. The problem arise again, how should i pack it back? just simply suck it inside my luggage or put it nicely so that the shape of the shoes still there? But my luggage is full ==" so i just simply suck it into the blue bag. Thanks god the shoes still LengLeng! =D

As i said, since its a random post, this post is posted just to show my HelloKitty Shoes! Hahaha Actually wanted to do assignments but after i finish searching for the information for the marketing assignment ( The Nature of Buying Decision ) and turn it into an essay form, i feel so lazy already . I don't know how to continue ; should i compare with it the goods' price? or just simple crap only? Dilemma, so i've decided to leave it aside FIRST. Thinking that i should go and find the information about the process of making mooncake. Reading the process is killing me because im interested more in the types of mooncakes that available than the process of making it.LOL But what to do? that is my professional speaking topic! Thinking of changing the mooncake to other foods, but i cant think of any other foods right now, my mind is so blank right now, or not just now only, all the while my mind is blank one.

Reached.

Finally i reached Subang!

Feel like need to get alot of things over here! Woot.!

1) Hair Dryer
2) Jeans
3) Formal Shirt
4) Shoes
5) tshirt
6) Mask
7) Pencil Case
Seemm like not much things only..Hahaha

Yesterday went to see the International airport at Sabah. Woot! Althou not as grand as the KLIA, but still counted as quite good compare to the AirAsia's terminal. I feel like i hate AirAsia more and more everytime i fly back with AirAsia. The board shows that we can get into the plane already but there is no one collects ticket at the gate.So i asked those fella that works over there, dey said wait for announcement.LOL then the board just for decoration is it? The information also just display for fun? Seriously, AisAsia you need to improve your system and services if not i rather pay more to fly back with MAS.

Alone at home now.Eating expired biscuits.LOL but still ok ba, hope i wont get stomachache. =D Lazy wanna go down although down there got all kind of shopping complex and ss15 is not far from here but still im lazy to change my clothes just to walk down for foods. Mummy said SubangParade got offer for formal shirts, ask me go and see it myself first but im LAZY to walk over there and also due to i didn't bring my sunblock back so i don't feel like going out. Hahaha so i think i will just stay at here and wait for them to bring me back foods. Hopefully they still remember im at home already.

I wanna eat eat eat and eat over here only. My mom said i slim d.I think just abit only because for me i still look the same, no different. So, yesterday i just keep spamming the foods. My mom asked me whether i want this and that or not, i keep saying yee yes yes! i want all only.Hahaha Then my mom said wa, i think Sabah really got nothing to eat.LOL I think i wanna eat :

1) Steamboat and Bbq Buffet
2) Japanese foods
3) YeeMee
4) Foods that daddy cooks
5) Foods that mummy cooks
6) durian
7) chinese foods
8) mooncake
9) DimSum
10) Foods at Connaught
11) SubWay!
And more! I think i gonna gain weight over here but who cares!? LOL

ChooKannie and SchewSchew,
Faster finish up all your things then bring me go kaikai already lar! So "NanDe" im back here. Two weeks actually very fast only, so faster faster bring me out! I wanna go Kl, Taman Connaught, Bukit Tinggi! Muahahaha =P Waiting for you guys ya.

INeedSomeone.

Since my sister said i didnt blog for so long already, i will blog now.

For your information, im freaking stress now.

1) Tomorrow got public speaking meeting and lecture and i haven't prepare anything for the meeting yet and we are so confuse about what we should speak during the presentation day.

2) Wednesday got HE meeting and i cant find anything abt it on the web and in the library. THE UMS LIBRARY SUCK!!!! And supposing-ly i should stay in my room and study for my Management exam, but now its like..i got not enough time for everything..!!! STUPID!!!!

3) Thursday got management exam and i haven't touch the book yet..Not even a single page! Woot? Im so Freaking cool right? And on the SAME day i have to hand in the Management assignment,its about the trade agreements. I cant find any information from the web too! LOL And one the SAME day, i need to present ANOTHER management assignment in front of all and i haven't finish prepare for the speech. LOLOLOLOLOL.

4) I got Micro Assignment that i not yet prepare anythg for it and we gonna have discussion on Friday! And got one Stalker in my group!! WTH!! And im sort of the Micro's leader? Sien.

5) Marketing Assignment. ARGH!! just now i was reading and it makes me fall asleep..WTh.. =="

I really dunno wat to do..Give up? Hahaha Tahan ?My head gonna burst d.. Help anyone?

D'Bayu.

We used to come here after our classes ;
We used to come here for our lunch ;
We used to come here for our dinner ;
We used to come here to do our rehearsal for marketing presentation ;
We used to come here to here to do our mathematics tutorial works,
but end up buying foods and makan only instead of doing works ;
We used to come here to enjoy the scenery ;
We used to come here to SS ;
We used to come here randomly and sit there without doing anything;
We used to sit on the bench just to enjoy the air over here ;
We used to sit on the bench and chit chat over there ;
We used to come here to "LookSeeLookSee" ;






We will do more n more random stuffs over here -D'Bayu.

"Orientation"Week

I Don't really remember what i did during the orientation week, so i just post up some of the picture that i took during and after the orientation week.

Majlis Ikrar & Aku Janji.



Riadah.



SleepOver Night 1.



SleepOver Night 2.



Japanese Culture Night.



View From My School (SPE).



I think that's all! =D

Uni1stDay..

3rd of July
This was the day that im leaving from my home to go to somewhere that is totally strange to me. Ums. What is this place?Where is it? How does it looks like? LOL!? i don't really care, all i know is i gonna stay far far away with my daddy, mummy ,Bibi and even further to Dajie.

Daddy fetches me to the Airport. In the car, there's three of us. Daddy, me and QinAiDee. Holding back my tear when i was in the car. I cannot and don't wanna imagine it when daddy gonna leave me at the Airport. Was tearing inside the car but no one knows. Tried to concentrate on some other things so that i wont cry out. On the way to the Airport, its still ok,but once i reached the Airport, I feel weird. I don't wanna leave, i wanna stay. I don't mind if i have to study private, but i don't wanna add more burden to my parents.Im going there with my friends! Isn't that cool? LOL Comforting myself with this,but seems like it doesn't help much.

AirAsia, SUCKXXXX to the MAX seriously. Customer Service is a total FAILURE!!! Skip that part.

Was ss-ing with QinAidee and Sk in the plane! Hahaha
To Sk, Please send me the SS pictures so that i can upload ere..Hahaha

Reached Hostel. HOLY GOD! 4people in a room. 3of them is malay! Im the ONLY chinese..! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL Luckily they are not that mean type of person, they talk to me, ask me whether i need this or that or not and lots more! They are good.

At night, my parents called me.Ask me how am i, this and that. Daddy asked me whether i wanna have Japanese foods or not! Yishh...!Dajie Asked me to take pictures of my hostel but until now i haven take any picture.Hahaha

First day first day. Got lots more things about this day, but my memory always fails me. As day passes, i can't really remember what happened on that day. But its good to me! Because i don't remember all those bad stuffs! LOL

To Myself,

Hang On! Its the 3rd week in Ums still you are still ALIVE! I feel proud of you. Eventhou you are far from my family, but i feel so warm when i hear their voices through phone. Bibi, thanks for keep crapping with me on the phone, i really need that sometimes to make me feel like im not really that far from home, far from you all.
Daddy,
don't worry about me, i can survive over here. When i heard from mummy that you cant sleep for the first few days after i left home because you were worried about me. You worry that i cant adapt myself over here, you worry that i cant sleep well over here, you worry that the foods over here is not suitable for me, you worry about me so much.But Daddy, im fine over here, really fine.So, don't worry about me k? I miss your jokes, i miss the way u mock me every time when i say i wanna cook,i miss the way mummy laugh for your jokes, i miss the way we "argue" about some silly stuffs, i miss whenever i ask money from you, you will call me Crocodile Kid! or when i go to your room to find you, you will pretend that you are oikoik-ing d.. LOL

Lastly,
Daddy, Mummy, Dajie, BiBi, i Miss you.. =(

From,
-Zanne-

FirstOfJuly..

Today's Activity : Celebrate JinYii's Birthday.
Venue : SnowFlakes, Ac!

With my random thought, i sms-ed my friends see who wanna join me for the celebration. I admit its some very LastMin outing again, so end up just Me, Jinyii and Sk went only.Went to SnowFlakes! Woot! Probably its my last Tongshui before i leave. Before we went to SnowFlakes, we went to some cake shop nearby to buy cake for JinYii. Spending quite some time choosing the cake but it seems like its my birthday more than JinYii's.
Final desicion - GreenTea Cake! Love it Love it! Hahaha

SnowFlakes closed at 11pm, so v dapau-ed the TongShui then we have it at AC.

As usual lar! Chit-Chatting, Kepoh-ing was what we normally did over there.Hahaha After that, we went to someone's house to continue or SS-ness.

Sk was teaching me stuffs about my laptop where i don't know anyting about it. At first i was concentrating until i suggested Let's take Pictures with Webcam! After that, Sk insists to teach me stuffs about my laptop where my heart already fly ~ But still i got listen to it, as in i just listen blindly only.Hahaha Meanwhile, JinYii was still plying with the WebCam until she found something fun about it! We can decorate our background before we snap a photo! Because normally is we edit it, add those cute cute stuffs AFTER we snap a photo, but this is BEFORE we snap a photo! Its really fun plying with it because there got so many cute cute stuffs! Here are some of our SS.

The Normal One :




After JinYii discover the Fun One :



The Queen!

I design One:


More 'n' More Colorful Aka More 'n' More Luan One:



Taking Picture While Dey Were Chit Chatting :


The Random's One:



The Sk Don't Wanna See My Face One:

So I Decided to Cover It By Myself.


Last but Not Least,

JinYii,

Happie Birthday!
Whenever I'm with you, just can hear both of us keep laughing only!And Whenever i wanna go somewhere, you also will join me and teman me, really appreciate it and feel so glad that i have a friend like you.Although we are going to study at different place, but when i get to borrow the Laptop from Sk then we SS again k?! HAHAHAHAHA.
Lastly, must take care arhhhh!

From,
Suzanne.

AnotherTiringDay..

Going to Sabah this Saturday yet so many things havent done. Today went to some government hospital thinking sure i get to do the medical check up. Woke up at 6am to go to school to meet up my friend then he fetch me to Klang where the hospital is located for medical check up.

Reached there at around 8am,not much people but the nurse said need to get the x-ray done at the private hospital before i can go for the medical check up and i need to take some kinda dunno what test outside. In conclusion i wake up so early for NOTHING!? LOL..

Went back to school to get my STPM cert. ==" the sucky result..Sien.. Photocopy all the supporting documents that needed by the Ums and certify on the spot by teacher.

After that went to Pyramid with my sisters. Bought a back bag, eye cream and etc. Spent around 100bucks today..Argh..but its ok because i need those things.

Hate Hate Hate..

Shortest Blog i've ever post.Hahaha due to my laziness.Wanted take picture of what i've bought today but LAZY! Because its just something very common and you guys can find it everywhere PLUS i don't think you guys interested in what i bought right?! =X By right today i should be enjoying Steamboat and BBQ buffet dinner with Choo and Schew! All i can say is sorry guys, this week im really busy, but when u ask me why im so busy? I don't think i know how to answer you, just feel like i should be busy instead of relax.Hahaha

Choo 'n' Schew,

Wait me wait me, i hope i get to eat Steamboat and BBQ buffet with you guys before i leave. Just we need the right time k?! hehehe

WesakDay!

As usual, we went to BrickFields for Wesak Day procession. Normally we park at the primary school but this year we reached there slightly abit late until there is no more parking in the school. It's hard to find parking there because there are so many people going for the WesakDay procession.We didn't walk for the whole journey this year because my grandma is following us to BrickFields to have to a look at the WesakDay Procession.

So, here is some of the pictures that i took .


















Daddy, Mummy and Grandma =D

My fav, MuaChi! Yumyummy


That's all for today!
Happy WesakDay to All of you!