我? 是的。

Sunday, January 23, 2011


又是我吗?
对啊,
又是我..

你出去了,
没带电话,
我又可以说些什么呢..

等你回来,
我没有吗?
虽然我说我不等了,
最后我还不是等你了吗?
我还不是回你了吗?

等你的时候,
你知道我都在干什么吗?

我什么都没心情做,
写写下字,
又把书给盖起来

上网,
一直停留在同一页,
Refresh 了又 refresh,
但是心还是不在哪里.

这些一分钟如一天的日子,
我不知如何过,
谁可以教教我?

听音乐,
是我唯一能做的事情。
听着音乐,
才知道原来我的心还会痛.

我知道你都有等我回来,
但是,
在我外头时,
我都有在和你传简讯吧
可能你觉得不需要,
但是,
我需要.

如果我没带电话出去,
会是怎样的呢?

生气? 担心?不管?
还是没什么..?

伤害了你,
抱歉,
没下次了,
这是我说的。

The.Unnoticeable.Fear.That.Rise.Suddenly.From.No.Where.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011


There were so many arguments lately.
With reason, without reasons, Knowing the reasons and Without knowing the reason.

Why..? Whyy is it happening?
Is it something essential for a relationship?
If yes, and do it have to happen so frequently?
If no, then why there are so many arguments lately?

Misunderstanding? Saying something wrongly? Sensitive? Something changing?

I don't like this.
Serious, i hate this.
This feeling is suck.
It makes me feel like something is so wrong,
yet I couldn't fix it
because I don't really know what is wrong.
Isn't it funny?

You always say you don't want an argument,
That's why you said it's your fault,
and there's the end of the story,
and then we will back to like nothing ever happens.

It sounds like something good right?
Because,
In this case, we can avoid argument.!
We can act like nothing happens,
We are still so "we".

But think back,
Is it really that good?
Everything is keep inside your heart,
Accumulating.

Arguments,
Indicate that, there's a problem arise.
Problem is meant to be solve,
Not meant to be avoid or ignore..!

Let's talk about today!
Should be a great day i suppose.
Go out shopping after Spanish lesson,
Buy stuffs,
Tell him about what my course-mate told me just now :
That there are a dinner night that is opened for everyone,
He asked us to go and learn the ball room dance,
Because he need some pairs of people to take part for the dance.

Isn't it sounds lovely? Dancing, Ballroom..?
Oh ya,
He said it going to held at Shangri-La Hotel,
WoW..! Is it awesome..?
And there going to be a family day for our course,
But the venue is not set.
So overall,
the ballroom thingy cost Rm65 and the Family Day is Rm20..!
All together is Rm85.
Is it a bit too expensive,
And i don't think both of us are interested.

So much things to share with him yet i have to just shut up and swallow it an the moment.
Nomore from me.
( Bad Day for Me. ) whole thing divide by half, or many more. Hahaha Nonsense.