Only.If.You.Care.

Wake up around 11am plus,
Go out for lunch.
Sometimes will have a walk with friends after lunch,
Most of the time will call me after you are home.

When you are home,
You will play game with him.
Slight Sms with me,
Around 4pm,
You will have your nap.

Wake up again around 5pm,
Sms me after you wake up,
I know its time for you to bath and have your dinner.
After dinner,
You will call for awhile.

Telling me you going to play with him again.
Ok! Just go on.
Call me around 1am,
which is when you want to sleep.
Talk for awhile.
Telling me lets sms.
This is the only time where im REALLY sms ing with you.

Do you get what Im trying to say?
This is the time where you are only SMS ing with me without doing other things.
The way you sms at night is so different.
I know you never realize it,
Because im the one who reading it,
Not you.!

Those sms-es that you sent to me at night are longer,
Not to say its more meaningful but at least when i tell you something you will reply slightly longer?

You always ask me what m i doing..?
But i rarely ask you what are you doing,
Because i know what you are doing during different time.

Things changed, if you realize.
We rarely skype anymore.
I wonder , if that day i did not say i want to skype,
I bet we will never skype until now.

Afraid to tell you things in the afternoon.
Do you know why?
Im afraid the next message you reply is telling me you wanna play game,
Or you wanna take a nap.
How do you want me to response beside telling you okokay?

Im wondering,
Could you write down things i do like what i wrote up there?
I bet you can't.
Should i ask you about it?
Or should i just Shut up and just Shut up?

I don't know why i write this for,
Im not blaming anyone,
And maybe im thinking too much,
Wanting too much from what I already have,
But,
Expressing my feeling over here is better than i just keep it to myself.

If you bother to read,
You will know what happened.

WhenExpectationsFail.

24.

I expected something,
Yet there is nothing.

25.

I expected more,
Yet there is nothing.

27.

I don't expect anything,
Because knowing there would be nothing again.

31. / 1.

Don't even dare to expect for something,
Because heart is not meant to be broken,
And expectations, hurt.

If don't want to get hurt,
Please quit expecting,
Because it kills you silently and slowly without you realizing it.

o111.

突然,
脑里环绕着首首悲伤的音乐,
整个人也变得好灰.

看着时间一分一秒得过去,
再看看书桌上,
叠着满满的纸和厚厚的课本,
我,
被压得喘不过气来.

一页一页地翻着那厚厚的课本,
心却不知已在何处,
进去脑里的却是我听着的歌曲,

就这样,
心情也随着音乐的旋律改变着.

书上写的一棵棵字,
看起来是多么的简单,

但是,

一旦心情被影响了,
陷入了低潮时,
多简单的东西都会变得好复杂,
不是吗?

*笑,
可以很正实,
可以很单纯,
也可以当做是一种掩饰.

当一个人笑了,
他真的是开心吗?
他是发自内心的笑吗?
还是在掩饰他的痛苦和悲伤,
不想让别人拆穿他的感受?

我,
笑了.
是因为不想让你担心.

带着面具,
让人猜不透的,
往往会让人想起小丑,

因为他无时无刻都得把笑容挂在脸上,
不管此刻的他是开心的,
还是伤心的.

他把欢乐带给了大家,
但,
人散了,
把面具给那下来,
脸部的肌肉几乎已麻痹.
他把最初的笑容给遗忘了,

他,
已分不清,
他的笑,
是开心的?
还是一种需要.

此刻,
他笑了,
但他懂.

那时的笑,
是在嘲笑自己..

当笑变成了一种工作,
我们还会开心吗?
开心时,
我们还会笑吗?

问着没有答案的问题,
还是算了吧. *

努力的把自己拉回现实里,

看着一样的场景,
一样的课本,
一样的页数,

我好想把自己塞进被窝里,
抱着枕头,
把自己弄得很狼狈,
然后再后悔没有好好的把握时间温习,
把自己恨恨得痛骂一顿,
折磨一番,
就这样傻了,

多好…

你问我 :

我还好吗?

我可以告诉你,
我不好… 吗?

还是早点睡吧,
晚安.

今天..

好累,
真的好累了,
不知道还可以撑多久,
再这样下去,
我会疯狂掉的!!

这样的累,
让我好想家,
好想爸爸和妈妈,
好想妹妹的废话,
好想姐姐的傻里傻气,
好想我的床,
好想我的房间,
我好想回家...

爸爸 妈妈,
你们几时的空过来看看我啊?
我今天又看到有人的爸爸 妈妈在那餐馆里,
应该是来看看他们的孩子吧,
让我好羡慕哦..
我知道你们很忙,
我,
也只随便说说而已,
发泄发泄一些,
可能会比较好吧..

下雨了,
很想站在雨下,
让眼泪随着雨水,
一起流下,
这样,
就没有人会看我这脆弱的一面,
好让自己为自己找个理由,
告诉自己,
我没哭; 不是我在哭,
是雨水, 而不是泪水.

过后,
把眼泪察干,
我还是我,
你们认识的我,
笑一笑,
再继续往前走..

Failure.

Just a failure as usual.

Failed to cook a simple maggie ;
Failed to wash my clothes without making it coloured in the end ;
Failed to take good care of my lappie until need to send it for repair ;
Failed to take good care of myself until got gastric ;
Failed to take good care of my earphone until one side of it is soundless ;
Failed to fold my clothes nicely ;
Failed to control my temper ;
Failed to cheer myself up ;
Failed to spend money wisely ;
Failed to solve my own problems ;
Failed to not asking helps from people ;
Failed to become independent ;
Failed to not thinking about all kind of craps ;
Failed to not being childish ;
Failed to get things done in time ;
Failed to not torturing myself not no reason ;

The most importantly,
I failed to make you quit,
I failed to make myself as a reason for you to quit ;
I failed in thinking that I can make you quit .

Please call me ATotalFailure. Thanks.

AfterRelaxingWillBeAStressDay.

Went to library this morning to study but end up uploading pictures. LOL But i did get to do the quiz and i don't know what is happening that i manage to score 10/10.



After that, thinking that i should do some reading on marketing since i got midterm for that subject on next Tuesday but end up i slept in the library. After i woke up, its time for the library to end its day.So i have to pack all my stuffs and go for dinner!

Went to Tasty Hot Pot! Finally! Thx to Choo and Schew always bring me Mam Mam anything that i wanna eat! Hahaha Picture Picture gonna upload next time because my phone is JAM.! =="

Ok! for now..im freaking stress! Too enjoy during the holidays until i didnt do anything for my assignments nor midterm. Argh!



1) Having Midterm for Reading and Writing on Next Monday which i haven do revision on that plus i hate English very much!
2) Having Midterm for Marketing on Next Tuesday which i haven study yet too.
3) Having Prof. Speaking presentation that we are still blur about it.
4) Stress with the outline.
5) Stress that don't know how to walk back from the airport to UMS.

Some more?! I don't hope so.

心。

心淡了，
说什么，
做什么，
都没有用了。

这次 我终于狠下心了，
你不知到我为什么狠下心，
是因为我不想再去等待，
等待着没东西的发生，
等待着没有人在乎，
等待着没人记得的东西，
等待着我的期望会实现，
等待着开开心心和你们在一起，
等待着很简单的一句话，
等待着你们的祝福，
为什么都是我在等？
想想，
可能是我之前做的东西，
你们一点都不在乎，
一点都不重要，
还是说，
你们一点都不想要，
是我太多事了，
是我一厢情愿，
是我活该，
是我 是我都是我！！！
都是我在想，
都是我在做，
都是我在找，
还是我 还是我！！
但我得到些什么？！
没有， 什么都没有！

付出，
不求回报。

但我要得并不多 ，
只是简简单单的。
但是你们都不在乎，
哈哈，
不要紧了。
是我太笨了，
不是说好不要再受伤吗？
怎么还学不会啊？
一次又一次给机会别人伤害你！
你傻了吗？
不是，
是我还对你们有所期待，
期待没了，
一切都没了，
这次，
我终于懂了，
但是还会不会有所期待，
会不会再受伤呢？
我不懂。

我不应该在这里，
不在这里。
如果我还在哪里，
也许我的想法会是美好的，
我会找尽所有的理由来，
想像着哪天如果我还在，
一定会很快乐的！

但是我还是要谢谢你们，
正心得谢谢你们，
给了我酸甜苦辣，
好的 坏的 都有！
谢谢 ，虽然这不是我乡要的。

p/s :

*Thanks ChooKannie and SchewSchew for bringing me to i-city to celebrate my birthday!
*Thanks Baaobei for keep sending me all kind of birthday songs!
*Thanks QinAiDee for calling me!
*Thanks KwanKwan for wishing me and the Hellokitty pencil case! Love it =D
*Thanks Rolex for celebrating my birthday 12days earlier!
*Thanks whoever wished me.
* and lastly Thanks those who forgotten/dont care/dont bother about it!

Love you guys!


- 娴著 -

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Shopping.DayTwo.

After so long didn't drive, finally today i get to drive!
Again! Shopping Shopping!
Went out with my younger sister to Pyramid to Shopping.

Tada!

Jeans.

Pencil Case.

Snacks!

FinalFantasy Dvd.They called it as the Great Collection.


And Lastly a normal LongPants for semi-formal, although i don't really care! hahaha


That's all for today! And more to come.Muahahaha

p/s : Sorry for the cacat pictures that i posted. Lazy wanna get the camera to snap it, so just use my Phone's camera. =((

* OffTopic *

I feel like that there are few changes in me after i went to Sabah.
I feel like i become more courage in doing something. As in, for example for last time, if the uncle con my money, even though i got his contact number , i wont straight away call him. I will send Choo the uncle's number and wait for her to call for me and solve the problem. For for this time. without any hesitate i just call the uncle and ask him what the heck is going on? Where is my magz?! Lol Feel so proud of myself. I cant say that im very independent, but at least in this case, i can solve it myself. I don't wait for others to solve for me anymore. ^^v

Secondly, i feel like my temper is getting sucker. I drove to ss15 yesterday. I feel got abit "HeatUp" while following behind a slow car. I just feel like speed speed and speed only! Wanna get to the destination as soon as possible. Even i feel that i drive till very dangerous. LOL

At the moment, that's all i feel about myself. Smile, life still go on.

Shopping.DayOne.

After come back then its Shopping Time! =D
Went out with mummy and sister to Carrefour to get some stuffs. Once i reach there i start to Dapau Biscuits!

Tada!



Got Butter Crackers, Le-mond , Lexus! all x2 Hahaha hope this time wont over-loaded =X
And i get sunblock for the face! Because my friend said i look darker d, as in MY FACE! ==" So i remember it till now. Lol

That's all for the first shopping with mummy! =D

RandomPost.

Bought this HelloKitty Shoes at Sabah (CentrePoint). The price is quite reasonable for me. I was thinking should i bring this shoes back or just use it in my hostel but i don't feel like using it in the hostel because the hostel is so damn freaking dusty and the floor is dirty too! So, i brought it back to Subang, at least i can wear it in the house right and no one will steal it. The problem arise again, how should i pack it back? just simply suck it inside my luggage or put it nicely so that the shape of the shoes still there? But my luggage is full ==" so i just simply suck it into the blue bag. Thanks god the shoes still LengLeng! =D

As i said, since its a random post, this post is posted just to show my HelloKitty Shoes! Hahaha Actually wanted to do assignments but after i finish searching for the information for the marketing assignment ( The Nature of Buying Decision ) and turn it into an essay form, i feel so lazy already . I don't know how to continue ; should i compare with it the goods' price? or just simple crap only? Dilemma, so i've decided to leave it aside FIRST. Thinking that i should go and find the information about the process of making mooncake. Reading the process is killing me because im interested more in the types of mooncakes that available than the process of making it.LOL But what to do? that is my professional speaking topic! Thinking of changing the mooncake to other foods, but i cant think of any other foods right now, my mind is so blank right now, or not just now only, all the while my mind is blank one.

Reached.

Finally i reached Subang!

Feel like need to get alot of things over here! Woot.!

1) Hair Dryer
2) Jeans
3) Formal Shirt
4) Shoes
5) tshirt
6) Mask
7) Pencil Case
Seemm like not much things only..Hahaha

Yesterday went to see the International airport at Sabah. Woot! Althou not as grand as the KLIA, but still counted as quite good compare to the AirAsia's terminal. I feel like i hate AirAsia more and more everytime i fly back with AirAsia. The board shows that we can get into the plane already but there is no one collects ticket at the gate.So i asked those fella that works over there, dey said wait for announcement.LOL then the board just for decoration is it? The information also just display for fun? Seriously, AisAsia you need to improve your system and services if not i rather pay more to fly back with MAS.

Alone at home now.Eating expired biscuits.LOL but still ok ba, hope i wont get stomachache. =D Lazy wanna go down although down there got all kind of shopping complex and ss15 is not far from here but still im lazy to change my clothes just to walk down for foods. Mummy said SubangParade got offer for formal shirts, ask me go and see it myself first but im LAZY to walk over there and also due to i didn't bring my sunblock back so i don't feel like going out. Hahaha so i think i will just stay at here and wait for them to bring me back foods. Hopefully they still remember im at home already.

I wanna eat eat eat and eat over here only. My mom said i slim d.I think just abit only because for me i still look the same, no different. So, yesterday i just keep spamming the foods. My mom asked me whether i want this and that or not, i keep saying yee yes yes! i want all only.Hahaha Then my mom said wa, i think Sabah really got nothing to eat.LOL I think i wanna eat :

1) Steamboat and Bbq Buffet
2) Japanese foods
3) YeeMee
4) Foods that daddy cooks
5) Foods that mummy cooks
6) durian
7) chinese foods
8) mooncake
9) DimSum
10) Foods at Connaught
11) SubWay!
And more! I think i gonna gain weight over here but who cares!? LOL

ChooKannie and SchewSchew,
Faster finish up all your things then bring me go kaikai already lar! So "NanDe" im back here. Two weeks actually very fast only, so faster faster bring me out! I wanna go Kl, Taman Connaught, Bukit Tinggi! Muahahaha =P Waiting for you guys ya.

一个人时。

生日快到了，
以前会觉得生日很重要，
一定要让朋友都知道我的生日日期，
一定要和家人或朋友一起庆祝才行。

还记得，
还没来这里之前，
知道自己的生日会在这个陌生的地方庆祝时，
觉得很不开心，
一直想着，
今年的生日一定是遭透了，
还想着一定是自己一个人过，
应该是自己一个人买蛋糕的，
自己一个人唱着生日歌给自己听，
把蜡烛吹熄了，
然后再祝自己生日快乐，
这样有够残吧。
哈哈哈哈哈…

但是，
当知道自己的生日会在家过时，
真的有那么一点点得到安慰的感觉，
觉得其实也没那么残啦…

但渐渐的，
当生日越来越靠近时，
要庆祝的心情却每那么强烈了。
突然觉得生日其实也没什么，
就只是一个日子，
让我们有借口约约朋友出来聚一聚，
一个理所当然的借口让我们收礼物，
一个借口让我们有机会吃蛋糕。

朋友啊，
你们还记得吗，
以前的我常常把我的生日挂在嘴边，
看到自己喜欢的东西时，
会开开玩笑的提醒着你们，
我的生日快到了，
虽然那时才一月啊。

你们还记得吗，
我常常告诉你们别忘了我的生日，
常常说着要如何过自己的生日，
常常在你们的书上或是在自己和你们的桌子上，
倒数这自己的生日，
常常告诉着你们我遥不可极的生日礼物，
常常告诉着你们我喜欢的蛋糕口味。

朋友啊，
今年没了我在你们的身边，
你们还习惯吗？
你们会偶尔记得我吗？
没了我在你们的身边吵吵的，
你们会记得我的生日吗？

以前都会想着要如何和你们庆祝你们的生日，
要买些什么生日礼物给你们，
要怎么和你们庆祝你们才会开心，
才会给到你们惊喜。
虽然还是常常失败了，
还常常把自己给弄气了，
弄哭了。

但是到了当天看见你们，
开开心心得唱着生日歌，
开开心心得把蜡烛吹熄，
开开心心得把蛋糕给切了，
然后再开开心心得把蛋糕分给我吃，
之前所有的不开心，
已不算是什么了。

你们懂吗，

在这里，
我再也没像以前一样，
告诉着别人自己的生日快到了，
告诉别人自己喜欢的东西，
告诉别人喜欢的蛋糕，
告诉别人要如何庆祝了..

你们应该都不知道，
以前我有多么的期待你们会如何和我庆祝，
会给我什么样的惊喜，
我会收到什么样奇奇怪怪的礼物，
会不会和我想象的一样，
还是会和我跟你们庆祝的类似呢？
哈哈哈哈哈…

今年，
会是怎样呢？
会有人祝我生日快乐吗？
会有人为我唱生日歌吗？
会有礼物吗？
会有蛋糕吗？
会有人在那天突然想起我吗？
会收到很久都没联络的朋友，
突然的来讯吗？
还是你们都会不记得呢？

没关系，
因为我突然想不到要庆祝生日的原因，
想不到为什么会有人为我庆祝，
为什么会有人为我浪费时间，
为什么会有人为我浪费金钱，
还有很多的为什么，
说不出来…

生日，
其实还真的没什么，

它，
平平凡凡的，
却很多人为了它而开心，
很多人为了它而伤心，
还有些人为了它而感动。
它是那么的平凡，
而同时却那么的让人着迷…

*OffTopic*
你们一定觉得为什么我那么得空，
想着这些有的没的。
现在我才知道，
原来当你一个人时，
会有那么多负面的想法，
会有那么多奇奇怪怪的想法，
会有那么无聊的想法。

没办法啊，

在这里是那么的难得我可以把音乐开得大大声的，
那么难得这房间只有我自己一个人，
这么难得这里只有我自己呼吸的声，
这么难么我可以静静的，
一个人想着，

你们，偶尔会想起我吗？

-娴著-

INeedSomeone.

Since my sister said i didnt blog for so long already, i will blog now.

For your information, im freaking stress now.

1) Tomorrow got public speaking meeting and lecture and i haven't prepare anything for the meeting yet and we are so confuse about what we should speak during the presentation day.

2) Wednesday got HE meeting and i cant find anything abt it on the web and in the library. THE UMS LIBRARY SUCK!!!! And supposing-ly i should stay in my room and study for my Management exam, but now its like..i got not enough time for everything..!!! STUPID!!!!

3) Thursday got management exam and i haven't touch the book yet..Not even a single page! Woot? Im so Freaking cool right? And on the SAME day i have to hand in the Management assignment,its about the trade agreements. I cant find any information from the web too! LOL And one the SAME day, i need to present ANOTHER management assignment in front of all and i haven't finish prepare for the speech. LOLOLOLOLOL.

4) I got Micro Assignment that i not yet prepare anythg for it and we gonna have discussion on Friday! And got one Stalker in my group!! WTH!! And im sort of the Micro's leader? Sien.

5) Marketing Assignment. ARGH!! just now i was reading and it makes me fall asleep..WTh.. =="

I really dunno wat to do..Give up? Hahaha Tahan ?My head gonna burst d.. Help anyone?

D'Bayu.

We used to come here after our classes ;
We used to come here for our lunch ;
We used to come here for our dinner ;
We used to come here to do our rehearsal for marketing presentation ;
We used to come here to here to do our mathematics tutorial works,
but end up buying foods and makan only instead of doing works ;
We used to come here to enjoy the scenery ;
We used to come here to SS ;
We used to come here randomly and sit there without doing anything;
We used to sit on the bench just to enjoy the air over here ;
We used to sit on the bench and chit chat over there ;
We used to come here to "LookSeeLookSee" ;






We will do more n more random stuffs over here -D'Bayu.

"Orientation"Week

I Don't really remember what i did during the orientation week, so i just post up some of the picture that i took during and after the orientation week.

Majlis Ikrar & Aku Janji.



Riadah.



SleepOver Night 1.



SleepOver Night 2.



Japanese Culture Night.



View From My School (SPE).



I think that's all! =D

Uni1stDay..

3rd of July
This was the day that im leaving from my home to go to somewhere that is totally strange to me. Ums. What is this place?Where is it? How does it looks like? LOL!? i don't really care, all i know is i gonna stay far far away with my daddy, mummy ,Bibi and even further to Dajie.

Daddy fetches me to the Airport. In the car, there's three of us. Daddy, me and QinAiDee. Holding back my tear when i was in the car. I cannot and don't wanna imagine it when daddy gonna leave me at the Airport. Was tearing inside the car but no one knows. Tried to concentrate on some other things so that i wont cry out. On the way to the Airport, its still ok,but once i reached the Airport, I feel weird. I don't wanna leave, i wanna stay. I don't mind if i have to study private, but i don't wanna add more burden to my parents.Im going there with my friends! Isn't that cool? LOL Comforting myself with this,but seems like it doesn't help much.

AirAsia, SUCKXXXX to the MAX seriously. Customer Service is a total FAILURE!!! Skip that part.

Was ss-ing with QinAidee and Sk in the plane! Hahaha
To Sk, Please send me the SS pictures so that i can upload ere..Hahaha

Reached Hostel. HOLY GOD! 4people in a room. 3of them is malay! Im the ONLY chinese..! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL Luckily they are not that mean type of person, they talk to me, ask me whether i need this or that or not and lots more! They are good.

At night, my parents called me.Ask me how am i, this and that. Daddy asked me whether i wanna have Japanese foods or not! Yishh...!Dajie Asked me to take pictures of my hostel but until now i haven take any picture.Hahaha

First day first day. Got lots more things about this day, but my memory always fails me. As day passes, i can't really remember what happened on that day. But its good to me! Because i don't remember all those bad stuffs! LOL

To Myself,

Hang On! Its the 3rd week in Ums still you are still ALIVE! I feel proud of you. Eventhou you are far from my family, but i feel so warm when i hear their voices through phone. Bibi, thanks for keep crapping with me on the phone, i really need that sometimes to make me feel like im not really that far from home, far from you all.
Daddy,
don't worry about me, i can survive over here. When i heard from mummy that you cant sleep for the first few days after i left home because you were worried about me. You worry that i cant adapt myself over here, you worry that i cant sleep well over here, you worry that the foods over here is not suitable for me, you worry about me so much.But Daddy, im fine over here, really fine.So, don't worry about me k? I miss your jokes, i miss the way u mock me every time when i say i wanna cook,i miss the way mummy laugh for your jokes, i miss the way we "argue" about some silly stuffs, i miss whenever i ask money from you, you will call me Crocodile Kid! or when i go to your room to find you, you will pretend that you are oikoik-ing d.. LOL

Lastly,
Daddy, Mummy, Dajie, BiBi, i Miss you.. =(

From,
-Zanne-

FirstOfJuly..

Today's Activity : Celebrate JinYii's Birthday.
Venue : SnowFlakes, Ac!

With my random thought, i sms-ed my friends see who wanna join me for the celebration. I admit its some very LastMin outing again, so end up just Me, Jinyii and Sk went only.Went to SnowFlakes! Woot! Probably its my last Tongshui before i leave. Before we went to SnowFlakes, we went to some cake shop nearby to buy cake for JinYii. Spending quite some time choosing the cake but it seems like its my birthday more than JinYii's.
Final desicion - GreenTea Cake! Love it Love it! Hahaha

SnowFlakes closed at 11pm, so v dapau-ed the TongShui then we have it at AC.

As usual lar! Chit-Chatting, Kepoh-ing was what we normally did over there.Hahaha After that, we went to someone's house to continue or SS-ness.

Sk was teaching me stuffs about my laptop where i don't know anyting about it. At first i was concentrating until i suggested Let's take Pictures with Webcam! After that, Sk insists to teach me stuffs about my laptop where my heart already fly ~ But still i got listen to it, as in i just listen blindly only.Hahaha Meanwhile, JinYii was still plying with the WebCam until she found something fun about it! We can decorate our background before we snap a photo! Because normally is we edit it, add those cute cute stuffs AFTER we snap a photo, but this is BEFORE we snap a photo! Its really fun plying with it because there got so many cute cute stuffs! Here are some of our SS.

The Normal One :




After JinYii discover the Fun One :



The Queen!

I design One:


More 'n' More Colorful Aka More 'n' More Luan One:



Taking Picture While Dey Were Chit Chatting :


The Random's One:



The Sk Don't Wanna See My Face One:

So I Decided to Cover It By Myself.


Last but Not Least,

JinYii,

Happie Birthday!
Whenever I'm with you, just can hear both of us keep laughing only!And Whenever i wanna go somewhere, you also will join me and teman me, really appreciate it and feel so glad that i have a friend like you.Although we are going to study at different place, but when i get to borrow the Laptop from Sk then we SS again k?! HAHAHAHAHA.
Lastly, must take care arhhhh!

From,
Suzanne.

AnotherTiringDay..

Going to Sabah this Saturday yet so many things havent done. Today went to some government hospital thinking sure i get to do the medical check up. Woke up at 6am to go to school to meet up my friend then he fetch me to Klang where the hospital is located for medical check up.

Reached there at around 8am,not much people but the nurse said need to get the x-ray done at the private hospital before i can go for the medical check up and i need to take some kinda dunno what test outside. In conclusion i wake up so early for NOTHING!? LOL..

Went back to school to get my STPM cert. ==" the sucky result..Sien.. Photocopy all the supporting documents that needed by the Ums and certify on the spot by teacher.

After that went to Pyramid with my sisters. Bought a back bag, eye cream and etc. Spent around 100bucks today..Argh..but its ok because i need those things.

Hate Hate Hate..

Shortest Blog i've ever post.Hahaha due to my laziness.Wanted take picture of what i've bought today but LAZY! Because its just something very common and you guys can find it everywhere PLUS i don't think you guys interested in what i bought right?! =X By right today i should be enjoying Steamboat and BBQ buffet dinner with Choo and Schew! All i can say is sorry guys, this week im really busy, but when u ask me why im so busy? I don't think i know how to answer you, just feel like i should be busy instead of relax.Hahaha

Choo 'n' Schew,

Wait me wait me, i hope i get to eat Steamboat and BBQ buffet with you guys before i leave. Just we need the right time k?! hehehe

说...什么?

虽然知道自己是对的，
但是却没有理直气壮的勇气，
去告诉别人自己的苦衷。

看到你们写的东西，
不知道是我太多心了，
对号入座了吗？
还是怎样。

心痛，
诉苦？
算了吧..
也许说了也没人懂。

前一阵子，
发生了很多事，
消化不了。
突然有个念头，
很想快点离开这里，
离开这曾经让我觉得很安全的地方。
这地方突然让我觉得很陌生，
很冷，很不安，很怕，
很想逃离这里。

快了，
要走了，
却有些舍不得。
矛盾？
是啊...
也许人类就是这样吧，
永远活在矛盾中，
脱离不了。
再过几天，
几天就好了，
我就会得到解脱。
但是这是我真的要的吗？
现在我还不懂，
懂了在告诉你们！

要学会独立了，
我可以的..!
自己一个人,
我也可以活得很好,很开心!
因为我相信..
一直相信着,
会成真的!

- 娴著 -

可笑..

自以为很重要,
自以为只要逗你们开心,就会拉近我们的距离,
自以为自己已成了你们的一部分,
原来还真的是自以为而已。
我对你么而言之不过如此。
我知道自己永远不是主角，
也不会是配角，
只是没想过我只扮演着路人的角色而已。

原来我一点都不重要，
原来我想带给你们的欢乐，只会让你们觉得很吵，
原来到最后我还是自己一个人。

曾以为自己不需要任何朋友，
曾以为自己可以狠下心得拒绝你们，
曾以为偶尔少了我在你们的身边，你们会不习惯。
或许我真的不需要朋友，
或许我真的该狠下心，
或许真的有一天我在你们的世界消失了，你们也不会发觉我的不存在，
或许我还怕寂寞吧

哈哈哈哈哈哈
笑自己把你们看得太重，
笑自己太依赖你们，
笑自己还搞不清楚状况，
笑自己还活在回忆里，
笑自己即使已站在他们的面前，他们还是看不到我。

我不喜欢笑，
却无时无刻都看到我在笑，
我不喜欢说话，
却是在你们里面说最多话的那个，
你们都觉得我很开心，
可是为什么我会在一群朋友当中突然沉默了。

但，我很开心，
因为我学会了不哭，
学会了在难过时微笑，
学会了不再生气你们。
只怕，
这不再是我，
而是为你们创造的另外一个我，
别怪我在你们面前的我，
已不是那个你们认识的我了。

- 娴著 -

p/s；记得这一刹哪的感觉，别再受伤了。

WesakDay!

As usual, we went to BrickFields for Wesak Day procession. Normally we park at the primary school but this year we reached there slightly abit late until there is no more parking in the school. It's hard to find parking there because there are so many people going for the WesakDay procession.We didn't walk for the whole journey this year because my grandma is following us to BrickFields to have to a look at the WesakDay Procession.

So, here is some of the pictures that i took .


















Daddy, Mummy and Grandma =D

My fav, MuaChi! Yumyummy


That's all for today!
Happy WesakDay to All of you!